The dual position
I'm Matthew Grant. I work in financial services, managing money for vulnerable adults — people who, for various reasons, cannot manage their own finances. I understand regulatory frameworks. I understand budgeting, cash flow, debt management, savings discipline. Professionally, I'm competent.
Personally, I was diagnosed with ADHD at 43. The diagnosis explained decades of the same pattern: I understand money perfectly. I set reminders. I intend to pay bills on time. Then I don't — not because I forgot the principle, but because my executive function failed to execute it at the right moment.
Late fees. Overdraft charges. Emergency borrowing for expenses I knew were coming. Impulse purchases during hyperfocus episodes. The irony of helping others manage money while failing to manage my own was crushing.
I tried every compensatory strategy available. Budget apps. Reminders. Accountability partners. Spreadsheets. Standing orders. All of them required the one thing I don't reliably have — consistent executive function.
So I stopped trying to fix my brain and started building the infrastructure it actually needs.